I'll admit that it was a bit disconcerting at first. I've become, sadly, unused to having time for myself. Even when I do take a break from the work that has taken over my life, my "free time" is spent reading blogs, books, and magazines that are all about education. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying this is a bad thing. Education is something I am very passionate about, and I truly enjoy reading and learning all that I can. What I am saying, however, is that there can be more to my life.
There just doesn't seem to be.
What I realized at the beach that day was this has to change!
When I was growing up, I was incredibly passionate about three things: reading, writing, and photography. I could very easily lose myself for an entire day in any one of those three hobbies. Now, I can't seem to remember the last time I did that. Instead of losing myself in the pursuit of one of my passions, I feel as though I've just lost myself.
So, either I start wearing a t-shirt that says, "If found, please make me stop and breathe for a moment," or I start making some changes.
Well, I can't wear t-shirts to work, so...
I'm not going to sit here and write, "I vow to read for pleasure, write one poem or blog post, and take 50 pictures EVERY DAY!" That's far too much to commit to and I would last all of two days, I'm sure. What I will do is promise myself to at least remember that these are the things that make me happy, and I deserve some happiness. Right?
I know that in order to give of myself to my students, there must be something more inside me than just a feeling of emptiness. I need to fill the void with the activities I love the most. I must do the things that make me happy. And that means finding the time...no, not "finding" the time...making the time for happiness.
This is my goal for 2012: to get back to the person I always imagined I would become.
Much work lies ahead, but I'm up to the task. I'm ready to make time for change...how about you?
|I love taking pictures of bees!|
Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.